9 December 1998

	The next day was Srila Gurudeva's last day in Malaysia. In 
the morning he and a number of the male devotees recorded a bhajana 
tape in Bala Singam prabhu's recording studio under his expert 
guidance. Krsnadasa prabhu gave Srila Gurudeva a photograph of Srila 
Prabhupada in a recording studio, and Srila Gurudeva gazed at it for 
some time. Srila Gurudeva was first recorded chanting a number of 
invocations. After that, he sang the songs: 'Hari Hari Kabe Mora 
Hoibe Sudina,' 'Sri Rupa-Manjari Pada,' 'Radha-Krsna Prana Mora 
Yugala Kisora' and 'Hari Haraye Namah Krsna' by Srila Narottama dasa
Thakura, as well as 'Vibhavari Sesa' by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura 
and 'Radhe Jaya Jaya Madhava Dayite' by Srila Rupa Gosvami. At the 
end he sang the maha-mantra, whilst the devotees sang the refrains 
throughout. At the end of the tape Srila Gurudeva was recorded 
speaking about some of the bhajanas which had just been sung.

	That evening Srila Gurudeva told more demon killing 
pastimes, including those of Aristasura, Vatsasura and Bakasura.

	"When Bakasura came and tried to swallow Krsna, Krsna became 
unbearably hot, and Bakasura was forced to regurgitate Him. Once 
again the demon attacked Krsna, and Krsna very expertly pinned his 
lower beak to the ground with His lotus foot, and with His hands 
ripped the demon's other beak upwards, killing him. Bakasura 
represents duplicity and hypocrisy. We see now that there are so 
many bakas, they are uncountable. What is a baka? The embodiment of 
duplicity and hypocrisy. Those who wear kanthi-mala and tilaka, but 
who are very tricky. Outwardly they act like a friend, but inwardly 
they are an enemy. From the outside they give sweet words, but 
inside they have a knife. So Krsna recognizes and kills them. So we 
see that they're falling down quickly, quickly. If one is practicing 
spiritual life then he should be far away from these bad qualities 
and behavior. If one is attached to followers, wealth, women, 
children also, to criticizing Vaisnavas for very petty reasons then 
they are not Vaisnavas, they are offenders. We should make Krsna our 
center, seeing our family members as His property. Grhastha-asrama 
is allowed. The gopis were all married. So many of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu's associates were also householders. The Pandavas too. We 
should not be attached, but for Krsna we can do all these things 
because we cannot be sannyasis yet. At the age of 50, 60 we can 
renounce our wealth and possessions, and give them to our son and 
daughter-in-law. Then in vanaprasthi you can continue to live with 
your wife, and then eventually leave her in the care of your son and 
daughter-in-law, like Bhaktivinoda Thakura did. We can learn so much 
in family life. It should be like a ladder, a school, training us 
how to love Krsna, otherwise it is very bad. Those who've tasted 
married life in previous lives, who have good impressions will not 
need to marry. But those who pretend to be brahmacaris, or even 
sannyasis, and who preach throughout the whole world, but who have 
so much attraction for wealth and women inside will fall down. They 
pretended to be renounced for wealth and reputation. They are 
bakasura. You cannot kill them yourself. Who will kill? Krsna, 
Baladeva."

	Srila Gurudeva then asked various devotees to tell the story 
of how Krsna killed Aghasura.

	Having finished the last class that he would be giving in 
Malaysia for this tour, Srila Gurudeva spoke some parting words to 
the large group of devotees and guests.

	"My pranama to all of you who have arranged and who have 
helped. Don't have so much faith in reading. Everything is within 
these books, but it is locked. 'I will read them all and become a 
paramahamsa.' (laughter) No. By this you will not realize anything 
and you'll fall down. Only a Vaisnava can open it for you and then 
you'll be able to understand something. Krsna will come in the form 
of words, and He'll clean your whole heart, and then you'll 
eventually realize everything. If a qualified Vaisnava is not 
present, then you can read, it is ok, but it is better to hear from 
him. You may have read Srimad-Bhagavatam so many times, but what you 
are hearing now you have not heard in lakhs and lakhs of births. All 
this I have heard from my Guru Maharaja and other Vaisnavas. This 
krsna-katha is so vast, it is like an unlimited ocean. So try to 
take all of this, what Vaisnavas have told, into your hearts."

	At last our blissful and fruitful stay in Malaysia with 
Srila Gurudeva had come to an end. Eight fortunate devotees received 
harinama from Srila Gurudeva, and seven more received mantra diksa. 
The programs in Malaysia were very successful, and none of it would 
have been possible had Bala Singam prabhu and Jag Mohini didi not 
opened up their large house to not only Srila Gurudeva but also to 
all of his travelling party as well. Together they and all of the 
other local devotees tirelessly managed, shopped, cooked, served, 
cleaned, transported and hosted devotees in a mammoth offering of 
service to Srila Gurudeva. Thanks to their surrender, Krsna arranged 
for many guests to come to the well organized and smooth running 
programs. Thus Srila Gurudeva was inspired to speak many hours of
blissful krsna-katha for the benefit and pleasure of all. 
Gaura Premanande!

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	These reports could not have been produced without the help 
and guidance of a certain person who wishes to remain nameless. I am 
very neophyte, I don't know siddhanta, and I am very much subject to 
come to false conclusions about what I hear or see. Having what I've 
written edited by this person has certainly helped me realize that. 
Therefore, I would just like to offer whatever credit is due to him.

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